Counselor

Today, for the first time, I went in and met with a "Christian Counselor", or "Specialized Therapist". I don't know what her title is, but she specializes in whatever my issues are. :)

{I suppose I should feel like hiding this fact, but I don't really the need to.}

It was strange, and it was strange that I was perfectly comfortable telling this perfect stranger my very personal struggles..... I kept on having out of body experiences: sharing with her and then jolting at the thought that this person didn't know me and that I was paying her a lot of money to just sit and listen to me.

I was paying for her to sit and listen to me....... hmmm......?

She asked me questions about this and that, she seemed really interested {of course...}.

My mind kept on saying: "You are talking to someone that you are paying, not a friend...." It was an awkward okay-ness (?) to share with her, sort of a disconnection, like sharing details of my life so that she could write a book on me, etc.

I was curious about how she would handle it once my "time was done", I glanced at the clock and saw that an hour had passed, she waited a few minutes and then stood up gracefully and then I stood up, knowing full well that it was my time to get out of there. I had only paid for this certain amount of time, I guess. ;-)

I meet with her again next week, {if all goes as planned} except my spouse will be with me. I wonder what my mind will be saying then, and what will his mind be saying!?!?!

~B