Just the Presence of Him

I don't know why that I am not like the other women. They seem not affected at all by their spouses being gone for periods of time.

But I am.

It makes me reflect more (I do enough of that already) and it makes me ponder the widows of the world.

It makes me think of how sad it is that a lot of people don't have what I have and I say that in all humbleness, because my good marriage is there not because of me, but because of something that I know nothing about.

I hate having him gone. There's no goal for the evening. No door opening, with the children herding to get around him. There's no scratchy kiss. No fresh-out-of-the-shower-making coffee-conversation--just quietness.

And I hate quietness like this.

~B