To Bend or to Break

Flashback Nov 2005 (SgF)

In everyone's lives, no matter who you are, we are put through tests. Tests that are hard. Tests that are easy. Tests that are killers.

Today I was talking to a friend, and she talked about the struggles that we have in our lives. How the struggles refine us and make us stronger. She said, "I suppose there can't be anything unpure in Heaven, and so God has to clear the impurities out before we get to him." Wow, it's really a true thought.

Heaven is pure and holy and clean. God can't just have every honyonker coming up there moving right in, he has to purify us, while we are here on earth.

When a person claims to be a true Christian, not just a cultural-Christian: (ie: going to church every Sunday, tithing, and all that jazz), we have set ourselves up for higher problems. The problems we encounter while striving to be a true Christian is that when problems come our way, we are forced, by our beliefs to not just run. If we have a true and real faith in Christ, we have to then believe that his way is the only way. That the wordly ways are not options to us.

But it sets the bar so high.

Which is good.

But H A R D.

I struggle different struggles than you, you struggle with different struggles than me, BUT we all struggle just the same.

How does one handle their broken relationships when their lives are involved with a true belief in Christ? If we are being true, then we need to realize that it means not backing away from life's struggles.

But what if one is backed into a corner and the other no longer wants to participate in the life that Christ has called you? ARe you still required, biblically, to stay within that relationship. Are we to martyr ourselves into that relationship, living day-to-day with the belief that Christ suffered for us and so therefore, we should be willing to suffer for him? It's. So. Hard. For. Me. To. Know.

I am a blip on the tv screen of life, what in the world do I know about these things?

What does a person do when there isn't any love left. What does one do when all roads lead to nowhere? What does one do???

We either break, or we bend. Neither way being the way we had hoped. We can bend in to total submission to that other person ruining our hearts or we end up breaking by resisting, resisting, resisting.

I often wonder how many of us could stop breaking, if we could just bend our knees, and fall into the moans of incomprehensible prayer to the only One who can save us.

~B