Stupid Me.

I, at times, can be quite stupid. Today I was stopped dead in my tracks realizing another mistake that I had recently made: I forgot to call a woman from a group that I meet with once a week to tell her our group was cancelled AND to add insult to injury this is the SECOND time I have done this to her!

I must tell you, I have NO problems with this woman. I like her, I am not holding some secret grudge against her! I had apologized immensely to her the first time I did it to her, and the reason I had forgotten to call her that first night was because she wasn't usually coming to the meetings. NOW, last night I called her twice, but her phone was busy both times that I called and after I hung up, life was hectic and I completely shoved the thought of calling her out of my head.

UGH. I don't handle things like this well. To think that I may have hurt someones feelings by making them think that I am somehow trying to get her not to come to the group is not my thing.

I realized that I hadn't called her today while I was teaching the children Language. Much to my dismay, I couldn't quite function after I figured it out...... My face was flushed with embarrassment and anger at myself. And then the worry of worrying about her feelings, ugh, just too much for this heart to bare.

I called her house and left a message. I hope that I didn't sound too... oh I don't know... aloof. I just said in the message that I had tried calling her twice and it was busy both times and so after that I just forgot to call her back. Ugh. OH! Wah.

It will all clear over, but man, it sucks when this happens, it's WAY TOO humbling!!!

~B